all the single ladies

i love my live club.
soooo soooo much.
so i went out and i gotta admit it i was planning on making out with some random guy. and i actually found THE perfect victim :)
he's from thailand. i've never kissed an asian before so that was pretty sweet. and he's cute. if i see him again this week we might make out again as well. not quit sure though.


but i noticed something and my best friend shares my opinion: i have crushes on "bad boys" all the time, but i end up with the nice guys tout le temps. to say it in french. not even on purpose. i guess nice guys like me cause they think i'm a "bad girl". which is not the case. i pretend to be one, but to be honest i am very very shy. the only reason i am so open is that i'm a completely different person when i'm not alone. i might have two personalities.
it's weird. and i'm fully aware of it. so let's call the shy one susie. cause she's definitely more me. susie wouldn't flirt with a random hot guy cause she would think that he would hate her cause she's ugly and weird.
and then there's the other one. let's call her mia. mia rakete ;).. mia knows boys. mia knows exactly what boys like her about her. mia would flirt with some random guy. she would never show her "susie - side". ever.

ha i think i'm funny. not really though.