guys guys guys

i think i like making out so much because it makes me feel good, pretty, desirable, and oh well sexy. i don't know if it's a good thing that i kinda "need" it for my self-confidence. is 22 too old?

i went to my german school today and it was fun in the beginning but i got very depressed somehow, i don't really know why. maybe still because of this other guy. aaaaaaaaah... fuck. can i be 20 please?

i got a headache. i want new clothes. mine don't fit in my closet anymore though. so maybe not?

i bought a new straightener. my american one is better and looks nicer too but oh well. it's all good. right?

and i'm smoking way too much right now. same with drinking. i need to stop.

OH ONE GOOD THING :) :) :) (yes i'm exagerating but it's alright):
some person from my new job called and said i could start on friday. money! and something useful to do. finally, i'm not just sitting at home or drinking or smoking.

goodnight. i had two hours of sleep last night.