i had my first car crush.

my life's so so so much like a stupid soap opera right now. i mostly hate it, but i feel like i'd hate a boring life as well.
so yeah i had my first car crush. it was 4am, i was driving my best friend's car, it was raining and very dark, and we crashed into my neighbour's garage. it looks unbelievable bad now but i'm gonna pay for the higher insurance and hopefully it's gonna be alright. nobody should know that i was driving though cause yeah i don't even have a licence AND i was drunk as hell. my friend and i shared a whole bottle of wodka, which is kind of a lot.
and i did not keep the promise i gave my brother, but i'm just not able to do so. i like this guy too much.
so yeah we stayed at home after that crash and then my brother and his friends came home, too. and they started yelling at my friend and she started crying and holy shit. then they all left the house and made me wait inside, and i called this guy i really like and asked him what i should do and stuff.. so he came over too and he and my brother got to talk about "it". it means us i guess.
yeah, their friendship's probably over. he's moving away in two months anyway. and he's TWENTY. freaking freaking twenty.
i should quit drinking. i quit smoking yesterday :D ...
it's too expensive. and bad for me and my voice. and i'm gonna start running on tuesday.
taylor made me do it. i love taylor!