i'm having my first hangover ever

okay hey what do you want me to do, what the fuck?
my boyfriend (yes he is my boyfriend now) is gone for two weeks and he might actually be in the airplane my parents will take too when they come back. what a coincidence. i'm picturing my brother and me picking up my parents and meeting nico and his family there, too. how awkward would that be..?
so today nico called me from the u.s. (which is the most expensive shit ever) when my best friend was over at my house. she only had an hour to hang out with me so she got supermad when i talked to nico for 25 minutes. the thing is, he most likely won't call me very often the next two weeks (probably twice. or once.) and i see my best friend every single day. and i'd even see her longer if her grandma wouldn't be stupid and jealous. and i ditched nico for miriam on the last night before he left. i mean, am i not a good person? i want some appreciation. argh.
i hate camping by the way. it's even worse without a mattress and sleeping bag.
oh nico's grandparents already know about me and my parents haven't even accepted yet that i broke up with my ex. god.
i ran out of cigarettes. the whole idea of quitting didn't work out that well i guess. i need to sleep, otherwise my head will burst. miriam is gonna come to my house later and she'll wake me up but i'm not gonna tell her that i actually slept cause if i did she'd think i'm mad she came. gooooooooooood. annoying. annoying. annoying.
please remind me that i still love her a lot.