Where is my mind?

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME? like really... most of the cast is going out to eat somewhere and i'm not. cause i don't know. cause i feel like i don't belong. cause i'm somehow depressed right now and i don't understand why. i feel like i did bad tonight, but that can't be the only reason and it is not the only thing. so what is wrong with me? why can i not be happy. it's nobody's fault but mine. there's nobody to blame but me. cause people are nice. what do i expect? and i miss being loved. again. i think i just found my weakest point of all. i need to leave this place