let's get emotional

so since i won't be able to sleep anyways..
let's do something more or less constructive. i'm listening to this the kooks song right now and it doesn't fit my mood at all. let's see what shuffle might bring: some sentimental say anything tune. that's nice.
today was a really emotional day. i cried because i was angry. it's not fun to be around me when i am angry.
i have a headache and i'm kinda shaking, not on the outside, more on the inside. it's creepy. so this is my last night here for now. i love my german bed it's so com/nfy and BIG. i will have my beloved piano back and nothing will seperate me from it :P and my friends of course. oh shit, i will cry a lot. like a lot a lot. i think i'm wonderin too much about what's gonna happen. cause i can't change it now anyways and yeah. i should enjoy my time.
this makes me sad, too. the whole leaving part. this is like the light version of upcoming june when i'm leaving for good. i finally built my roots here, i have friends i actually really like and i'm scared that they (the roots) will break a little bit when i'm back in germany. i think it's impossible to live two lives at the same time, but this is exactly like that. isn't it ?
no longer by the kooks is a beautiful song. it doesn't help to get rid of my headache though.