Sex and the City is on right now :) :)

I love Sex and the city. this movie is amazing.
When I'm in the car for a long time I kinda get depressed. But in a good way. It's more like melancholic. Because I listen to music and look outside and everything just flies by me. And then I listened to "How to say goodbye" by Paul Tiernan. It's from the amazing soundtrack of "Nick & Norah's infinite playlist". Unfortunately, I can't find it on youtube so I'm only able to post the lyrics:

Living isn't quite the same
You said to me, it's runnin' away.
If you're scared or tired of what you're scared of
Why should you stay
You love to say goodbye
And always counted all the time
'til he was free
to get up and leave
to learn how to breathe again...

Slippin' out to have a cigarette
with someone else that he'd never met
Ask her if by the way would you like to
run away and try to forget
Just not to stay
To leave without saying why
To get up and go
To catch the last train
To get in some car and drive out again
To never come back this way
Left to say:
goodbye

Paul has an amazing voice. I don't know any other songs of him but I'll google him right after I'm done with this. Don't you know the feeling when you just wanna leave, be someone completely different without your old worries or responsibilities..? I kinda had the opportunity to make a new life without really losing my old one, but actually you can't change completely. You aren't a completely different person. I started out differently, but where I "ended up" now, I see a lot of similarities to my old life. Yeah, I'm not actually popular or anything like that in America, but I'm involved with drama and choir and I'm pretty busy most of the time. Of course, there's differences, I don't go out a lot here (well, where do you wanna go in Fargo?) which results in less alcohol, too. And my friends here are different than the German ones, but I mean they grew up in a completely different world, so what did i expect? oh and i started not caring about my looks anymore, YAY. and i use words like yay :-O.. that's bad. but i'm still addicted to shopping and kid's accessories and my friends and i enjoy SEX AND THE CITY WHICH I AM WATCHING RIGHT NOW. woohoo...

goodnight i'm going to meltin pot tonight. um yay?




edit: new decision that'll make my life better:
i'll never weigh myself ever again.