saturday saturday..

excitement excitement. it's almost saturday and i'll switch back in my old life for a week. scary thought. i think i will miss fargo when i leave forever in june. a few kids, the musical and theatrical education, and not having my old reputation. here, i'm just some random kid like everybody else wether in germany.. i guess there i'm the happy child without worries, a little stuck up, but helpful and nice. a little crazy too i guess. do i even have an american reputation ?

did i change a lot? i don't know. i might have learned how to accept people better. i'm not sure about this though.
and i gained sooo much weight, i'm like a fat pig with reddish brown hair and blonde roots. NICE.
i'm worrying a lot about how i'm destroying relationships people built up because i left. and i'm superjealous of my senior friends who can leave their hometowns and go to college. life begins for you guys and i still have to wait another 2 - 3 years.
i'd love to have coffee right now. without milk and sugar of course. people around me are acting weird, because of me ?