Where is my mind?

i'm really bad with this blogging stuff but nobody is reading it anyways so i guess it doesn't really matter. i've had a really good week: musical try outs and i got callbacks and now i actually got a pretty important part and i'm really really surprised. we had our first rehearsal yesterday and it scared the shit out of me. I'm sooo scared that i won't meet the expectations. I'm not that great, it will be superhard to imitate an accent from Egypt and i suck at acting. and we'll have rehearsal everyday so there's no time for breaks. Plus I'll be gone next week so i'll miss a lot. i already canceled the trip to Orlando i wanted to go on because i felt bad about missing so much stuff. Meanwhile, I found a pretty prom dress and i really really like it. and i have a date too yay :)

i'll fly to Germany on saturday and i'm scared of that, too. I hope it won't be weird to meet everybody and i hope my high expectations are not too high. they might be.. i never realized how much i loved my german life but now i do.

today's a snowday and i hate it. because we'll have to make this day up and because i hate not being able to go outside. i can't even go tanning cause suntana is closed. at least i think so, i just called them and nobody answered. this apartment is too small for my family, it kills me...

i'm watching a really bad children movie on netflix right now, i think it's even german but not good at all. it's about fours animal that love music and want to have a band or something like that. it's called the "fearless four". i used to listen to this story before i fell asleep, i guess that's why i picked it.

there's this creepy kid from my school who used to call me three times a day and was hitting on me. i talked to friends about him and they all agreed that his a major weirdo so i tried to ignore him during our open period yesterday. he told one of my friends i just used him because i wanted him as a prom date but now i have somebody else. i don't care enough to say sorry to him, he'll get over it. actually there isn't even anything to get over with. and i wouldn't have gone to prom with him anyways, he scares me too much. i should write more often, it feels good.

i haven't been to the last girls' choir rehearsal and i won't be there the next two times. i feel bad for the director but i couldn't make it last time and my trip to germany is more important right now. and i will miss the north high choir concert which kind of upsets me cause i would have made it without the stupid blizzard.. -.-*

yes i really should write more often. i will for sure.. who cares it's been read or not right :)