sick sick sick yuck

i hate being sick so much. back in germany, i hated it, too, but at least i enjoyed having the whole house for myself in the morning and having friends or my ex over in the afternoon. i used to love watching tv alone but here i do it all the time anyways and everything repeats itself. i also grew out of these bad reality dating shows mtv seems to love. i watched the breakfast club today and i liked it. i tried to chose one of the characters to relate to but i can't really, i'm more like a mixture of all of them. or maybe a mixture of the bad kid and the weirdo but i bet people think i'm more of a princess.
the whole germany thing kinda screws me up, but i try to stay positive, there's only 11 weeks left and i'll make the best of them. i'm not scared to go back anymore, everything is gonna be alright. i'll have a job, get my licence, live alone and have my friends move in. yeah :) and i'll force them to bring food since i'll be too lazy to cook. or since i'm bad at cooking since i haven't done it for the last 7 months.
sex and the city is on right now, i've seen this one about five times and i still love it. new york is an interesting city, but i wouldn't wanna go there right now. no place to live at. no place to feel welcome at.
i wanna write more about my germany experience but i think i have to see my american friends first to figure out some little things. more or less little.