and another weekend somewhere far from fargo

i haven't spent a weekend in fargo for about four weeks and that actually makes me feel kinda bad. i feel like i don't live here anymore at all (and i've never really had this whole "homefeeling" about this city). I did enjoy being at home all alone and watching Lizzie McGuire (or something like that, I most likely just spelled her name wrong). I'm using a lot of brackets today! Anyways, it was nice to cook healthy broccoli for myself without anybody complaining about the lack of meat. My nose feels swollen, but the major feeling is numbness (that's not really a feeling, is it?). I'm glad I went to the musical rehearsal tonight (although I don'think I was allowed to since I left school after 3rd period), otherwise my day would have been too boring. I'm less happy about getting up at 4.45 tomorrow though... I hope San Diego offers good jeans :P
I can't believe I'm gonna leave Fargo soon, I won't see most of the people I see daily here ever again. That can be a good AND a bad thing...
I read "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" today, it's a good book, but I've heard people say they exactly think like him (the main character of the book) and i do NOT AT ALL. he has an interesting personality, but I can't identify with him most of the time. and it really does surprise me, that people who don't drink or would ever take drugs identify with him that much. actually, i don't think the story could take place in fargo. i wish i could spend time in another american city, to see if most teenager life's are as innocent as they are here. yes, of course, not everybody is "innocent", but people try so hard to hide themselves here, it's ridiculous. Why can't they/we not all be ourselves, i mean it's normal to mess up during your teenager years.
I better pack for San Diego. And stop watching Austin Powers which will steal some more of my brain cells.