chicago's not that great.

i miss germany a lot. i wish i had a mail from a certain person, but i'm not mad or something cause i'm even too lazy right now to write one so i shouldn't be complaining. chicago is not that great, it really isn't. the shops are too expensive, the people don't seem to be nice, and i don't get the right athmosphere to be here. maybe i'd have to stay longer to enjoy it, but i miss my friends and school will start again, so i gotta go back. i miss having my own room, i mean, i like my brother, but this has been to long, i do not enjoy family vacation at all. the problem is, that back in fargo, although i have my own room, i still feel caught in the apartment with my family. i can't wait for germany to have the house for myself and be independent and not have rules anymore. my mom paid for my new purple straightener and i'm thankful since she doesn't even like my hair straightened and tried to be nice :)... thanks mom!
10 weeks. 10 weeks. 10 weeks. that's such a short time. oh, i will miss my fargo people. sometimes i don't get why people even like me. i wish i could see myself from up above to really judge what i am like. my mom says i am arrogant ALL THE TIME, my dad says the same (minus the all the time in capital letters), my brother says i'm a "free soul" and a weirdo, my friends say i am sometimes emo and energatic. but what am i? well, at least i know that i am egocentric. that's for sure ;) and madly in love with music.
i enjoy listening to my brother sleeping. it sounds peaceful.