i need your car and i need your lohove.

i hate being with people who love each other more than they love you. no i actually don't hate but it makes me feel bad. it's a weird feeling when they all talk about something or somebody and you can just watch and try to think of something different to entertain yourself. this all sounds like i wouldn't even like these people, but i DO like them a lot, it just isn't that much fun to hang out with all of them at the same time.
i wish i would understand myself a little bit more. i honestly would like to have a psychologist, somebody to trust and talk to who could tell me wether i'm crazy or not. actually, i don't think i am crazy, i just think more than some other people do.
i'm such a little fake. i'm extremely good at smiling and being friendly and telling people i'm great. it's amazing. is it amazing ? i don't know, maybe it'd be better not to fake smile and yell at their stupid faces. what's going on with some of them? have they ever thought about something else but them? but on the other hand, i have anger problems, i really do. it's embarassing how small my self-control can be sometimes. i had a little conversation with some guy about a week ago, about wether you can or can't waste water and he did not believe me that you CAN waste water, just because he can get as much as he wants. well, DEAR ZACH, lots of people CAN'T. BUMM.
i should be doing my biology homework. or french. or westernciv. i bet there'd be some english to do, too. i don't feel like doing anything.
oh, my computer broke, too, which is kinda bad, cause i have to borrow my brother's everytime now or go online on my iPod. no, actually that's not the point. i bought two new CDs today, and i can't put them on my iPod which makes me just a little mad. that's the worst part. prom's in a week, i better stop eating. ha, i won't anyways, susie's SELF-CONTROL does not exist.
i think my decision was right. or my thoughts. i think i was right and you do realize that now in case you still read this. if you wouldn't have, you would have sent me a mail by now. it's sad. i'm gonna try to stay away from you. it's better for both of us, i know it.
melba joyce was great yesterday night. :]